what is going on?

So I've finally stopped taking classes at any school, I've sat myself down and I've told myself, "Now you are done with school and you are not going back to school until you work on something having to do with the Degree you worked 5 years for." and for some reason that didn't have the effect I so desired of myself.

I attempted to make a portfolio, and failed a lot of times trying to use Tween Classes in Flash CS4 (shouldn't be difficult, but it is for no reason) so I went onto Wix and it sort of um...well you saw what happened in the blog entry right below this one. It's quick to make but the end result is very slow, too. Needlessly slow. I don't know how their script is writing out this type of pull menu, but the other ones I've seen are a lot quicker. How is it so slow? Why can't I just get my Tween Classes to work and make one myself half as slow!?

Look at me, now I'm turning into a Flash-snob, too? Thats the thing about art, you start doing it and then your snobbery has no bounds. Not even the internet is safe and the internet is pretty tacky by default. For now. Maybe someone can change that eventually? I mean, I appreciate what they're doing with Chrome and Bing but its still pretty much the same boring mainstream browser that everyone has. /theinternetistackyrant.

Its getting tough to work like I used to! Its an art bum-day, where I look at what I'm doing and I've said "yes this is the best that I've ever been, but I'm still at the worst of where my career is going to take me because I've just started, after all" and it is a bum-day.

So I wondered, how do other artists get a pick me up during art bum-days? I know that Rockwell and Michealangelo had seriously awful bum days but they seemed to get over it and go back to work. I looked to others who work really hard, and I think 'well a lot of them have kids relying on them' and I remind myself that Rockwell and Michealangelo aren't really the people we think of as 'fatherly.' Michealangelo was single for pretty much his whole life with only a few scattered romances here and there who's credibility is questionable, at best.

So is there a secret handshake to shake off the bumminess? Is there a special drink to--OK, there is--but is there a special boosting...non illegal...thing...that just gets other people passionately for what they're doing when they feel like its an art bum-day? Other than the obvious 'put your butt in the chair' method, which does work to an extent.